Friday, October 22, 2010

"I love to read the scriptures"

For the past 3 months I have diligently read the scriptures. I have missed the occasional Saturday, which I am working on NOT doing, but for the most part have read every day. I love the peace that the scriptures bring to me. I love the answers and the rush of the spirit that comes from reading every day. I have the blessing of taking Nick and Caitlyn to Seminary every morning(Seminary is an early morning class that teens can take. In Seminary they study a certain Book of Scripture for the entire school year. They can Study the Old Testament, The New Testament, The Book or Mormon and The Doctrine and Covenants)  In doing so, I usually have time in the mornings to read while I wait for them. For the past month, Nate has been working and I have taken him to work in my morning routine as well. As we sit and wait for the time to pass before he has to go to work (because I take him at the same time I take Nick and Caitlyn) I will pull out my scriptures and read then as well. I have been reading in The Book Of Mormon and just finished it on Monday. I decided I wanted to see if I could read it one more time before the end of the year, which is going to be a bigger task, but it can be done :) I will keep you posted on my progress.
I really fell in love with the Book of Moroni, which is the last book in The Book of Mormon. I love Moroni's words on Faith and Hope and Charity. What a blessing that has been right now.
If you are finding yourself discouraged, in need of a boost, read the words of Moroni about having hope. It reminds me of President Uchtdorfs talk on Hope  http://lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?hideNav=1&locale=0&sourceId=25c5a0ad4843d110VgnVCM100000176f620a____&vgnextoid=f318118dd536c010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD
or Elder Hollands talk on Safety for the Soul
http://lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?hideNav=1&locale=0&sourceId=77ee56627ab94210VgnVCM100000176f620a____&vgnextoid=2354fccf2b7db010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD
How grateful I am for living prophets and apostles who teach us and who give us the lifelines we need to hold on to to make it through the muck of the world. Sometimes it is muddled and sometimes it is joyful. Either way, I have found great peace and strength through reading the scriptures.
In closing this post, let me share the lyrics to one of my favorite songs :
Clive Romney, “Scripture Power,” Friend, Oct 1987, 10–11
1. Because I want to be like the Savior, and I can,
I’m reading His instructions, I’m following His plan.
Because I want the power His word will give to me,
I’m changing how I live, I’m changing what I’ll be.
2. I’ll find the sword of truth in each scripture that I learn.
I’ll take the shield of faith from these pages that I turn.
I’ll wear each vital part of the armor of the Lord,
And fight my daily battles, and win a great reward.
[Chorus]
Scripture power keeps me safe from sin.
Scripture power is the power to win.
Scripture power! Ev’ryday I need
The power that I get each time I read.

Marvelous this plan of our Fathers in which he blesses us for even the smallest of efforts in our daily lives. If you have not read your scriptures today then...what are you waiting for??

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Theater...outside of Utah

Kris, Caitlyn and I just finished up the production of "A Streetcar Named Desire". This play was one I had heard of and had probably read years and years ago, but was somewhat unfamiliar with. I knew that Marlon Brando had played Stanley Kawalski in the movie version of it and that he had a great scene calling for "STELLA!!!!!" his wife, to come back to him, but other than that, did not know a whole lot about the play.
In a nutshell, it is the story of Stella and Blanche Du Bois, they are sisters who grew up on the plantation "belle reve" in Mississippi. Stella left and moved to New Orleans and married Stanley. Blanche stayed and basically went off the deep end after her young husband committed suicide. She ended up being the scandelous talk of the town and left after trying to seduce one of her high school students. She takes up residency with Stanley and Stella and causes all sorts of havoc. She begins to like "Mitch" and he likes her until he finds out what kind of woman she is. In the end she goes through a serious of horrible events that cause her to basically go a bit bonkers and  Stella has her committed.
The story has so many layers and so many amazing lines in it. Tennessee Williams was an amazing playwright.
Well, Kris played the part of Mitch and Caitlyn had a smaller role of "woman" friend of the lady who lives in the apt upstairs from Stanley and Stella. I was the associate producer. It was nice to learn so much more about the production, directing and stage crew roles in a play.
During this whole process however, I have learned how grateful I am to have had the chance to work with Clearfield community theater and Heritage Theater in Utah. I am so GRATEFUL that I had the opportunity to work with so many people who were so talented and had such a vision of doing wholesome theater. That brings me to my next thoughts.
I am trying harder in my life to not jump to conclusions and to judge people. But it has been an eye opener to be in a production where our little family are the only LDS cast members. There are other cast members who are religious and that is really nice as well. I have learned so much from those people. I guess the one thing I have learned is that professional theater can be done with morals. It was hard for me each night to know that in one scene Stella and Stanley are "making up" and it ended up being an almost "nude" scene. The actress playing Stella did a fabulous job, however when it came to the "bedroom" scene, she had what appeared to be no qualms about being almost naked in front of the audience. She would go out in her nightgown and robe only to have Stanley undress her. The only thing left on under the covers was her underware. So here I am back stage trying to get her dressed again. So not only did the audience have almost nothing left to the imagination but I am seeing WAY more of this actress than I want to. And if that is not enough, there really was NOT a place for her to change privately backstage. We would hold a sheet up, but for the most part the men in the cast (some as young as 18) had to do a great deal of averting their eyes so as to not see her.
I was really so pleased with the whole show except this once scene and it reminds me of justifying going to a movie..."It really is a great movie except for one scene"...you know how that goes.
I really wanted to invite ward members to come and see the show but did not because of this scene. We even told her that she did not need to undress as much but that didn't seem like an option.
So needless to say, it was an eye opener. I really really love theater and doing productions but i can see that we can no longer go into auditions or into a show without first becoming really familiar with the show and asking the director questions like "will their be nudity in this show?" I guess these were just NEVER things we had to worry about with our community theater in utah.
So I give my Kudo's to Tracy Heun, Parks and Rec Manager for Clearfield City, and to the many directors of the shows there for putting together WHOLESOME theater for the WHOLE FAMILY to come and enjoy!! There was never a question of whether your Bishop should be invited to see a show you were doing.
I am not sure what other shows we will be doing with the theater here. Everyone wants us to audition for RENT in the spring, but I am uncertain about how that show will be portrayed.
I am excited for some opportunities though to audition for "DOUBT" and a newly written show done by a Chinese playwright called "At the Playground:" This show may even be taken back to China to perform. :o)

At any rate. These are my rantings. I hope they do NOT come across as too judgemental or harsh. I feel like I am in a totally different world here sometimes. I love love love California, but I am learning that I am not in a shielded bubble anymore....

Thursday, September 23, 2010

My husband....the blogger

I just thought I would add a little note letting you all know that Kris is now blogging.
http://kiss-politics.blogspot.com
check it out.
His blog is based on many of the current issues facing our country, politics, religion, etc. He is very insightful and even though you may or may not agree with his points of view or opinions. Go ahead, pop on over and take a gander and leave a comment or two.
Enjoy
And sweetheart.... I love you. Thanks for your opinions and ideals for being able to put into words the thoughts I have been feeling as well. You are amazing. :)

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Best Date Ever

I just got back from the best date ever!! What was it you ask? Well I will give you the details. Kris and I dropped of Caitlyn and her friend at our house at 4:30 pm, after 2 hours of watching two girls try on many many outfits. I must say I have a very patient husband who knew it meant the world to his (almost 15 year old) daughter to have him sit and watch her come out and model all sorts of outfits. And I must admit, she has amazing taste! (but more on that later)
So we dropped the girls off and then went to have Mongolian BBQ YUMMY!!!!



Now, this is where the date gets good. It has been WEEKS since I have had the opportunity to talk...just sit and talk....real adult conversation....talking....with my husband. And that is what we did. Our conversation was wonderful, filled with talk of goals, hopes, dreams, kids, work, and just the things of our hearts.
After dinner, we went to....hang on....wait for it....
WALMART!
I know...Can you think of a better place to go while we are out on our date? We looked at all manner of things....well, really we looked at a few things for Caitlyn's birthday, got a few groceries and then headed out again on our adventure. All the while, I got to hold his hand, look into his amazingly blue eyes and feel the warmth of his touch, which still,after 19 years, makes my heart flutter.

Next we went to "the mall"


Again, on our quest for caitlyn's birthday. One of my very favorite smells is the smell of Barnes and Noble Bookstore. We went into the mall through Barnes and Noble and just got to soak in the smells of this wonderful book store! We had such fun looking for things for her and for ourselves as well and the best thing? Again, it would have to be holding my sweethearts hand and seeing the sparkle in his eye.

Lastly, because it was getting late (it was 8:30) we headed to IHOP to share a banana cheesecake dessert.


We spent another hour talking, venting, and just enjoying each others company. So although this date was nothing the world would deem as grand or spectacular, it was the Best Date Ever because I just got to spend 5 uninterrupted hours with my best friend, my spouse, my eternal companion and it was splendid!
Thanks sweetheart for indulging my whims and spending your night with me!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Little Hand

Sometimes poetry hits me when I least expect it. Inspiration comes from many places. I was reading my friend Brittany's blog about her little Caleb starting Joy School and I was thinking of how fast they grow and change.
This little poem just took shape here on this page. Enjoy

Little hand I take in mine
So soft and through mine intertwined
Little fingers, little creases
Little wonders never ceases
Your tiny fingers wrap round mine
If but for a little time

Bigger hands hold mine tight
Crossing the street on the green light
Exploring the world so big and vast
A tree, a bug how long will it last
Holding tight to go here and there
You touch my cheek, my nose, my hair

I grasp your hand so big and warm
and hold it in my very own
One day your hand will guide me too
Just like mine used to do
What comfort your hands bring to me
I love you , my baby you will always be.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Do you ever find yourself wondering "what can I do?"

This morning I was searching through favorite blog sites that I have saved that have cute crafty things to make. I was asked yesterday if I could help out with our wards upcoming Super Saturday (did I mention I am VERY excited to participate in at Super Saturday?) and so I thought I would brainstorm for ideas. As I was going through the blogs this morning I found the blog of a former co worker who is going through brain cancer. She found out this past spring that she had a brain tumor and they did surgery in June. I was reading through her blog that is mainly being kept up by her husband. Reading their story really put things into perspective very quickly this morning. First to make me appreciate how GRATEFUL I am that I can do the tasks I need to everyday. I can do the laundry, I can do the dishes and I can brush the dogs and I can make the beds and do all the tasks of home. On top of that, I can wake at 5:30 AM and get breakfast for my kids as they get up for seminary, I can wake up refreshed and ready to go to church on Sunday. I can read my scriptures without headaches or struggles. My list could go on and on and on. As I read about some of the things her husband is going through, I cried. Her brain right now has lost its ability to filter comments. He talked about the fact that she brings up things from years ago that he did, or even now things he does that make her crazy from not matching the kids clothing correctly (in her perception) to things he shared with her in confidence as a husband about his own insecurities or faults or temptations and she is just spouting them off to anyone and everyone. But then I read about his love for her and how much he hoped things would get better soon. He talked about her dropping to 96 pounds, he talked about her platelets increasing which is a great thing. I can not imagine the stress on this young father and husband, trying to care for a very sick wife and 2 small children. I cried as I read about the generous time and energy of their friends and family who completed a successful fundraiser for them.
I found myself wondering "what can I do" I have had many people around me, including my own amazing, sweet, strong, beautiful sister, go through cancer. What can I do? How can we make an impact? Instead of being hooked on TV, or the internet, what can I do to contribute to someone Else's life??? So that is my quest right now, to figure out a way to meaningfully give back. If you have suggestions please let me know. If you want to jump on the band wagon with me let me know. In the meantime. I will let you know what I come up with. There has to be "Something I can do"

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Playing Catch Up

Yep Yep, pretty much got slacker written all over me, right?
I was up in Utah the end of July and gave my new Nephew, Eric, a hard time about not keeping up on their blog....then I looked at ours.....hahaha!
So I guess I need to play catch up or post some amazing epiphany right?
Actually I have had a few of those lately.
Nick and Caitlyn started back to school on August 11th. Along with starting back to school, the also started back in Early Morning Seminary. I must admit, part of me misses not having seminary in our home each morning, but part of me is glad to have them in more of a classroom setting with more kids their ages. I get up and take them over and then have some time in the morning to wait while they are in class.
I decided while I waited that would be an AWESOME time to get my daily scripture study in and so I have been able to read in the scriptures more and to enjoy the insight they give me each day.
Last week, I was waiting in the car, Nick and Caitlyn had already gone in. I noticed kids driving in later and hurrying into the building, then I noticed two kids who had ridden bikes to seminary. They arrived about 15 min late and were clearly out of breath and I could almost feel that feeling from them of fatigue from riding, trying to get bike locks out and set up and knowing they needed to hurry into seminary. At that moment I had a thought enter my mind. I thought how nice would it be if someone was standing there saying "WAY TO GO....YOU MADE IT HERE" and I thought, isn't that part of our job? To encourage those around us to make it? No matter what the goal, to stand up and say "way to go..you are making it" "Way to go...you pushed harder today and succeeded"...."WAY TO GO...YOU MADE IT" How often as parents do we get caught up in our own agenda of only seeing the end goal and forgetting we are all figuring out a way to make it there. I know in my house, I get caught up in the "why didn't you get this done? mode instead of the "WAY TO GO...YOU MADE IT" mode. How often do I say to my kids... Thank you for all you accomplished today?
When I saw those kids make it to seminary, even though they had to ride, even though they were tired, even though they were late...they made it. Nothing else mattered at that moment...they arrived.
We can apply this to our lives as well. Keep our eye on the ultimate goal and then recognize our progress forward rather that berate ourselves for making a mistake or taking longer to get there. How much more progress would we make or would our kids make if the praise coming in was greater than the recognition of what we did NOT get done?
I found myself wanting to jump out of the car and go hug those two kids. I wanted to jump up and down and say "YOU MADE IT, YOU MADE IT....WAY TO GO"